Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Is there a light at the end of the Tunnel?

Don't ask me how Steve and I have managed to stay in the same house since I started the divorce proceedings. It's been hard. I stay in my little private haven - the bedroom - most of the time. He got real ugly the other day...called me a not so nice name. I know I've hurt his pride and he's going to lash out. But it's hard letting it roll off my shoulder. But the past two days we've been cordial. So we're saving some money as we have divided the property in the house evenly and decided who's staying in the house. I'm going to leave when the divorce is final. I actually look forward to living somewhere fresh...something all my own. I really would like to buy instead of renting. I hate having money go to purchasing something for someone else.

Steve has said he has no desire to be my friend. I honestly hope he changes his mind as the anger wears off. But who knows...he thinks so differently about things. And maybe I'm being stupid to think he'd want to be my friend.

I haven't done so well on my challenges I've set. What I have done is the spiritual goal - I stayed to all the meetings and I actually enjoyed it. The emotional one - well I haven't found something good about myself every day, but I haven't put myself down either. So does that make it a wash on this one??? The exercise goal....YOU MEAN I SET ONE??? Was a no go. Maybe this next week I can do it.

Jeannie, from "Jeannies Happy World" sent me a real nice card. Thought I'd share it with you.


Cute huh!!!

Well I'm off to bed. Hopefully I can sleep better tonight. The light at the end of the tunnel is coming...


Mimi said...

It's too soon to talk to him about friends. The way things are for the 2 it may happen, but healing takes time.

Hearts & love to you. I'm so proud of you for being so strong.

I got a nice card from Jeannie today, also.


Mimi said...

I meant to say "the way things are for the 2 of you"

more x's & o's

Aubrey Garff said...

I am so sorry about all of this. I am proud of you that you have been so strong. Don't worry too much about the goals, just make it through this and then worry about everything else. Keep up with the spiritual part though, that will help you through all of this. I am serious if you want to come to az I would love to see you! Aubs

Queenie Jeannie said...

Yes honey, there IS light at the end of the tunnel!! Friendship will take time, if it happens at all. Take care of you and your boys and see what pans out.

I'm glad you liked the card!