Thursday, March 26, 2009

It has been so long since I've posted on my blog. I haven't really felt like it. The last month has been busy with doctors, getting any and all exams I can before I lose my insurance. My mood has been up and down. Right now it seems to be going down. I know it's mind over matter but sometimes it just seems too hard. I've had tears sitting right behind my eyes since about yesterday afternoon. It's almost like a sneeze that won't come but is there.

I want this divorce over with. I'm trying so hard to be Christian like in my thinking towards Steve. But it hard when he's saying that I'm crooked and that I'm a jerk. So I hide in my cave...the bedroom...just so I can escape the tension.

I'm getting anxious because Matt leaves for Iraq this coming week. I wish his safety and all the blessing he deserves. As well as to all our other servicemen and women who help us live in this country. Regardless of all that's going on now...we are blest.


Mimi said...

Just remeber that God is only a prayer away. And we are only a click to our board away ;-)

Aubrey Garff said...

I can't believe that Matt is going to Iraq. we will pray for you and for his safety. Love you cousin

Queenie Jeannie said...

So sorry you are feeling this way hun. Hopefully you will feel some closure and healing after it's finally finished. Any word on when that will be? I STILL don't think you have to be left in the cold as far as insurance goes. If he doesn't and you don't remarry, then you should be still covered. You earned that benefit right alongside of him!!

I will be praying for Matt. I know you are scared for him, but he's well trained and with the best military in the world!!

Hugs friend!